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12th-Apr-2015 04:53 pm - Me
I've noticed a few new readers lately so here is a little about me that you may or may not need to know.

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What I'm listening to:
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Hey everyone it's that time again will we see You tomorrow?

Don't forget the Details:

928 SE 9th Ave
(just off belmont)

Check us out on twitter! http://twitter.com/GameNightPDX

Check out The Green Dragons website, they have a full bar, a great menu and a TON of beers, so many they can't keep them updated on the website!


GameNightPDX is a singles mingler type of group. We meet on the first and third Wednesday each month from 7 to 10pm + for mingling over great beer and board games. OK, it really tends to be more about card games, but it is great nonetheless.
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16th-Jul-2009 11:46 am - A life change pt 2
So the dating thing went not so good. well we broke up so not so good in that regard.
Some of the points he made in the breakup email are valid now that I look at it, if not a little to unforgiving. So I have some things to work on.
I get what I did wrong an I know now how to fix it. (for once)
We are going to get together in a couple weeks to talk about stuff. The friendship part is to important to let it get in the way of a possible bad idea on dating.

A lot of the issues are stress related as I got pretty anxious and grumpy and he feels like he has to fix that (which is a common thing for guys and so annoying...) which isn't what I wanted/needed. Talked to my therapist about it last night and I asked to go up on my meds so we started that today, not tired so far and that's the sign that they are to high. So that should help with the issues almost right away.

I need to control my stress better too. It's so hard for me to realize i'm getting stressed until it's to late.
stressers right now:
  • Sabrina and her family moving away next week - you don't realize how much someone means to you until they are going. Losing my big sister is stressing me out BIG TIME.
  • KCon coming up, I'm not stressed about it but I've had everyone else stressing out and asking me the same stupid things over and over and it's almost getting to me.
  • New Job - not a huge stress but it's different and I'm just trying to get in the grove of getting it down, even if I don't really Do much of anything
  • new relationship - there was a lot of stress making the transition from friends to more and the added stress of the feelings of another friend. Of course as soon as I told the other friend it became more stress but in a different way but never got a real chance to deal with it since i got the goodbye email the next day.
  • having regular sex and worrying about becoming pregnant even though we are careful - this always freaks me out even if there isn't anything to worry about.
  • summer in general stresses me out, so many family functions and friend functions it gets a little overwhelming sometimes
  • the 1 year anv of me having my breakdown is a little stressful for some reason, always worried it'll happen again I guess
  • oh too much caffeine! I really need to cut that out!
So yeah... I need to get a handle on this shit and not talk about it all the time to other people. i CAN deal with my shit on my own, and do, i just didn't need to talk about it with him. well that doesn't sound right... he tells stories and he pretty much outlined every crazy event in his dating life for me so I kind of felt I should do the same but it didn't work out right, i wound up just sounding bitter instead of funny or interesting like he does. So stepping back and talking about it with a guy friend who KNOWS how I am helped a lot. I'm still kinda anxious and hurt over it but i think it'll get easier in the next two weeks, and knowing that we have set a date to talk is good. It makes things a lot less stressful and a lot more manageable. Still hard seeing him pop up on twitter but i'm not following him on my direct one just the other ones I manage which I don't really look at. I miss him, but it's only been 2 days and I should miss him, especially since we've been friends since April and talked everyday for the past month and a half all day. (before we tried the dating thing)

So I'm doing pretty good. I just need to recognize my issues better and work it out before bringing in anyone else. I can do that.
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20th-Jun-2009 02:11 am - also...
june 23! tuesday COME!!!

I hope to see you there! The band I manage (critical) is playing. WE ARE SO EXCITED!

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20th-Jun-2009 02:04 am - I met Wil Wheaton today...
it was AWESOME

me hanging out - i looked like ass!

signing autographs

I was on tv promoting the conference i was at all week - OSBridge http://opensourcebridge.org/

It was a great time. I love my new friends/community
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“The amazing thing is this: 90% of a woman’s emotional problems stem from feeling unloved. So don’t stand back and analyze her, like a doctor diagnosing a patient, or like a therapist questioning a client. Give her your love - the same love that is motivating your questioning - immediately and unmistakably. Walk over to her, look deeply into her eyes, hold her and stroke her, tell her how much you love her, smile, hum her favorite song and dance with her, and chances are, her emotional problem will evaporate. She may still have some situation to deal with, and you may be able to help her with that, but the emotional aspect will be converted to love. It is a very rare occasion when your analysis of her mood relieves her of it. Most often, your analysis and attempts to fix her will just piss her off more. Ask her if she would rather you gave her love or analyzed her when she is upset. It’s so easy to give her love; it’s what both of you really want anyway. But as a man you are more likely to try to fix her. That’s exactly not what she wants, and exactly what will make the situation worse, most of the time.”

David Deida, The Way of the Superior Man
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30th-Apr-2009 09:21 pm(no subject)
Life is confusing lately. Sometimes i don't know which way is up.

lots of weird thoughts coming in and out of my head lately. interesting the things you think of when you have time on your hands!
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21st-Apr-2009 01:39 pm - new stuff!
really enjoying tumblr!

it's hard to explain what i like so much about it. maybe the way the photos look? still not fond of how the customizing works but it's alright. I deal :)

so I have two http://addictedtotext.tumblr.com/ and http://shewalks.tumblr.com/

one is just stuff i like or photos i like and the other is all my feet photos. they aren't in any order now. but they will be in sate order from now on. it's a nice way to have them up instead of just on flckr, i know it's opening it up to foot fetishes but oh well, it's shoes/feet.
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Ha. Seeing message board people out fours later is strange. I'm so different!
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